Happy New Year’s Day. As I sit here covered in paint from head to toe and exhausted as can be, I wanted to make one of my personal resolutions happen by getting back into writing and blogging. 2015 was a year I would like to forget and while there were some great moments, the majority of the year was filled with darkness. I hit some pretty low points this year financially and with that comes depression. In my forty years of life, I have never been in this bad of a situation and the funny thing is, I have a full-time job and work 24/7. I will always remember 2015 as the year of bank fees and negative account balances. I am pretty sure I paid more to Chase in bank fees than I did in rent and that explains why, for the first time in my life, I received a 3-day notice from my landlord right before Christmas. Lets just say, I didn’t have myself a Merry Little Christmas. I became frustrated, angry and on the verge of a breakdown.
If all of that wasn’t enough, my driver side car window broke in November (still not fixed), I have had to get new tires twice this year due to vandalism, my car had several issues this year including one that cost $1600 and last but certainly not least, my laptop decided to leave me and go to laptop heaven. Just thinking about all of this is exhausting.
Now while a lot of things are just material, I did let them get to me and affect my happiness. I became very withdrawn and almost reclusive. Negativity found its way into my soul and I let it consume me. On Christmas Day I woke up feeling very defeated and decided that I had enough. As I sat there munching on holiday cookies I became infuriated with myself because I had spent most of the year working out and had lost about 20 lbs. I let stress and depression lead me back into unhealthy food choices and found those pounds that I had worked so hard to lose.
No more, I am done.
A few days ago I decided to kick off the new year by painting my room and changing my environment. I spent all of New Year’s Day painting and can’t wait to have it all finished. I chose a nice shade of blue which is very calming and paired it with an antique white. A partial wall will have chalkboard paint so I can write positive quotes to get me through the day. This is just one of the many changes I am bringing in 2016. I also plan on doing the following:
- Taking the 52 week book challenge by reading a book a week.
- Kicking off the week of Janurary 4th with a juice cleanse and then getting back on a regular clean eating and exercise regime
- Getting back to my passion for blogging
- Trying a new restaurant each week
- Visiting St. Augustine this year (been trying very hard but money keeps getting in the way)
- Taking my kids to Disney (they deserve it)
- Getting back on track with my #TracyTastesAmerica project and cooking my way across the USA
- Saying “no” when I can’t do something instead of killing myself trying to please everyone
I have many more goals but these are just a few. I wish you all a very Happy New Year!